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9/26/05 06:54 pm - DONT READ: LONG POST ABOUT MY FEELINGS ON FRISBEE. YA HURDD
I feel like I talk about my best friend. I don't know, it's just tough when we're captains, ya know? Well he's so anal about having the team his way, and to get us to be perfect. But I don't want us to be that way, highschool frisbee should be fun, and all about spirit. Our team won't have any fun if we're doing drills and shit, and I feel like everyone wants to say it but I'm the only one who does. I guess because I'm captain. And I also feel like after telling everyone what I think our team needs to be, that everyone is telling Brian and he hates me. Does he hate me? I dont really know, I hope not. I feel like a girl, a little girl who talks shit on her friends. Should I feel that way? Am I being a girl?? I don't know, and I wish I could see everything that is said behind my back. I know Brian won't talk about me, so why am I so open to everyone. I don't think I'm going to tell anyone anything, but it's tough. Sometime I need to talk to someone who won't say anything to anyone, but I'm not secure enough to believe people have the ability to do that. Well, I should really stop talking shit. But our team won't improve, so why does he even try to fix us, Brian says it's like talking to a wall, but how does he expect people to remember what he touches like the snap of his fingers. IT DOESNT WORK THAT WAY. and someone needs to tell him, and as the other captain, I feel like I should. Why did Kyle even chose 2 captains to lead the team, both of us have different views. I really do think mine are better, but that's because they're my ideas. So here's the analysis:
Jeff's Ideas--------Brian's Ideas
Spirit first--------Winning first
Team second---------Improving the team second
Respect third-------Spirit third
Winning last--------Respect/not calling fouls last
So why do I think that Brian doesnt take my advice, about how spirit should be first and everything else doesnt matter because fun is all that matters. He's too ready for college, and I think he needs to realize his place as a highschool teammate, and captain, instead of as a drill seargant, and a general.
F'in problems. Mom was right, he has been on hardcore soccer teams all his life, so he's used to thinking winning is priority #1. And it's embedded into his brain, and it's hard to get that concept out of his mind.
I really miss the seniors so much, why couldnt I be in the same grade?? WHY, they knew what spirit was and had so much more than even me, and I'm sad that I have to admit that.
AMEN
Jeff's Ideas--------Brian's Ideas
Spirit first--------Winning first
Team second---------Improving the team second
Respect third-------Spirit third
Winning last--------Respect/not calling fouls last
So why do I think that Brian doesnt take my advice, about how spirit should be first and everything else doesnt matter because fun is all that matters. He's too ready for college, and I think he needs to realize his place as a highschool teammate, and captain, instead of as a drill seargant, and a general.
F'in problems. Mom was right, he has been on hardcore soccer teams all his life, so he's used to thinking winning is priority #1. And it's embedded into his brain, and it's hard to get that concept out of his mind.
I really miss the seniors so much, why couldnt I be in the same grade?? WHY, they knew what spirit was and had so much more than even me, and I'm sad that I have to admit that.
AMEN
fricken DJ KOOL- LEMME CLEAR MY THROAT
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