Gangsters Paradise

I feel like I talk about my best friend. I don't know, it's just tough when we're captains, ya know? Well he's so anal about having the team his way, and to get us to be perfect. But I don't want us to be that way, highschool frisbee should be fun, and all about spirit. Our team won't have any fun if we're doing drills and shit, and I feel like everyone wants to say it but I'm the only one who does. I guess because I'm captain. And I also feel like after telling everyone what I think our team needs to be, that everyone is telling Brian and he hates me. Does he hate me? I dont really know, I hope not. I feel like a girl, a little girl who talks shit on her friends. Should I feel that way? Am I being a girl?? I don't know, and I wish I could see everything that is said behind my back. I know Brian won't talk about me, so why am I so open to everyone. I don't think I'm going to tell anyone anything, but it's tough. Sometime I need to talk to someone who won't say anything to anyone, but I'm not secure enough to believe people have the ability to do that. Well, I should really stop talking shit. But our team won't improve, so why does he even try to fix us, Brian says it's like talking to a wall, but how does he expect people to remember what he touches like the snap of his fingers. IT DOESNT WORK THAT WAY. and someone needs to tell him, and as the other captain, I feel like I should. Why did Kyle even chose 2 captains to lead the team, both of us have different views. I really do think mine are better, but that's because they're my ideas. So here's the analysis:

Jeff's Ideas--------Brian's Ideas
Spirit first--------Winning first
Team second---------Improving the team second
Respect third-------Spirit third
Winning last--------Respect/not calling fouls last


So why do I think that Brian doesnt take my advice, about how spirit should be first and everything else doesnt matter because fun is all that matters. He's too ready for college, and I think he needs to realize his place as a highschool teammate, and captain, instead of as a drill seargant, and a general.

F'in problems. Mom was right, he has been on hardcore soccer teams all his life, so he's used to thinking winning is priority #1. And it's embedded into his brain, and it's hard to get that concept out of his mind.

I really miss the seniors so much, why couldnt I be in the same grade?? WHY, they knew what spirit was and had so much more than even me, and I'm sad that I have to admit that.

AMEN

I'm basically done with this live journal thingy. haha i've only been using it to read ashlyn's and jess's blogs.

i had just about one of the best weekends with my girlfriend ever.

Thursday Night- 40 Year Old Virgin at O.v. <3
Friday Night- Football. <3
Saturday Day- PICNIC at Core Creek. <3
Saturday Night- Sneaking out at 2 in the morning to watch the stars. <3
Sunday Night- Hangout adventures. <3
Monday- Family Picnic/swimming in the Core Creek. <3


So there's the update on the Labor day Adventure.

I'm mike jones don't act like you don't know the name.

so i'm going on this picnic really soon, with claire. but i figured i'd update before i go. last night, the football team disappointed us and lost, so they're not #9 anymore, but it wasnt that bad. considering we played #20 in the country. I'm still gonna support the team, and hopefully they support us.

Next weekend is the captains meeting for Ultimate Frisbee, ofcourse I'll be there. I can't wait to play the captain's game, and have a chance to layout for a good throw haha.

well gotta go, i'll update more later.

well work is almost over with, thank god.

This coworker of ours decides to steal the plaque we won for the lifeguard competition. i mean, come on... my sister was captain, she's deserves the fuckin' plaque.

School starts Tuesday. i'm excited to see everyone until about Wednesday. Homeroom C-06, that's what's up.

I'm really not ready for school. Although I think it's going to be less work than what I do now.

Llamas lost their game today, we were pretty sad. But we kept the spirit up. The captain's meeting for the real season is on September 10. I'll probably drive, and it's going to be really fun. There's a game for all the captains and that's pretty damn sweet.

Shit I miss the alumni llamas already. I'm going to try to fix the Llama trophy shelf. I probably won't do too well. I'll try, I promise.

The sister leaves tomorrow, feels like right when we really get along she has to go back to college. I'll be up to visit her a couple times I think.

Fuck girls.

i felt like shit ever since i got home from frisbee. i don't know why. it's been pretty bad lately and i think everything just built up and exploded. I hate how my parents are acting. I don't hate them, i hate how they're acting. So about two days ago I asked them if I could have Cass over for breakfast so we can do the whole best friend thing tomorrow morning, and they yelled at me because they're too busy with something else. I asked them again tonight and they yelled at me for asking so late. Fuck that, they know they're wrong and I'll wait for their apology. Fuck just about anything else. My sister took my parents side for some reason i don't know. I should spend more time with my parents too but idk. i have to fuckin talk to cute girls, wtf is up with that, jeez. umm, i want to quit work, because i want to do so much but i have to schedule off of work, and that's a bitch. i cant clean the pool at work, and that pisses me off because i have to deal with people asking me why we don't clean it, like we purposely don't. fuck that. ashlee hates me. fuck that. i need to go school shopping. fuck that. my moms car is in the shop. fuck that. my disc's havent come in the mail yet and it's been 2 weeks. fuck that. ashlyn and jills presents didnt come in the mail. fuck that. rain sucks dick. fuck that. i keep cursing. fuck that. i should sleep. goodnight? fuck that.

oh yeah this weekend/week has been pretty sweet. the llamas won their first game against pennsbury. the biggest guy on their team jammed me on the last play but i still held onto the frisbee, all that matters.

fuck girls
frisbee is my girlfriend.

frisbee <3

life is alright.

6 days until Lifeguard Competition.

work's alright, the kids are fun and make up pirate jokes with me (they're 8 and 7).

I fell for a girl on myspace. we promised to marry each other. we'll see how that works out.

Frisbee scrimmage monday morn at walter miller elem vs pennsbury. should be fun.

update of the last two days.

work sucks
becky dumped me
i was in an accident

fuck life.

The llamas last school year were amazing.  We always had the best
spirit, and we never became angry at another team no matter what the
circumstances.  We brought llama love to all of those at Neshaminy
High School, and also to different schools.  None of them read
this, but that doesn't matter, they live in my heart, and therefore
deserve an entry.   I'm directly in the middle, light blue
shorts and no shirt, not the one to the right without a shirt
(Dale).  But the one to the left of him.  I'm with my twin
Tom, and we never stop laughing together.  Great times that will
frolic in my heart.  In this pic you can also see Brian Acq (my
best friend), he's on the ground to the right, showin his good
qualities.  We're the captains next year, therefore you should
join the team. YES YOU. 





Just look at this pic, it's the only one you'll see of two teachers
(Miller and Opp), with students like Dan Walsh in the bottom-left
corner, touching his DIsCK.